* I just wasn’t able to control my emotions that time when I had to find a way to pour it out. At last, I’m feeling way way better now.
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I must admit I didn’t grow up with harsh people around. Since I was a child, I have been fortunate enough to be surrounded with considerate peers and from time to time experience being pampered or get a teeny bit of special treatment once in a while. Despite that, I know I have been handling valid criticisms quite well. Charge it to experience – from encounters with ‘notorious’ professors during college days, numerous dealings with difficult media sources to bizarre interactions with different nationalities (I don’t want to cite one) and a lot more.
What I’ve learned from such experiences have all been useless nowadays. I hate myself for being affected by some people who act like they know everything – those who act so kind and concerned but stab me from behind or even those who want to assert their authority too much making me wonder if they really deserve what they’ve got. I hate people who grab attention by showing off.
I know myself. Most of the time I wouldn’t care much about my surroundings especially when these are just petty stuffs and people are just making a big deal out of it. I wouldn’t care if someone’s such a big shot VIP of some sort. (I’ve met VIPs of VIPs, so what..) I don’t like to talk too much and brag about what I’ve got and achieved in my almost 25 years of existence. I’ve caught people’s attention and received praises and criticisms from people who aren’t just ‘ordinary’ ones. But I don’t value myself highly just because of that.
I’ve appreciated criticisms. But these days I’ve been encountering humiliating approaches based on nothing but self-serving motives. I can’t stand such nonsensical styles.
You know what, if you are really dying to grab attention, better jump off a building. I assure you, you’ll get everyone’s.
